Scream & Shout [confessional]

[Colleen]

Both ladies said they were keeping me... I really hope that they're not lying but I could understand why Ryan might just incase I campaign to Carly. It would be smart but such a bitchy move. [LOL. Carly told Ryan in PM that I wanted to vote her #_#]

I am expecting to be blindsided. If they do then they can suck my non existing dick. If not, I'll be like "wat". lol. And appreciate that they kept me.

[Colleen]

I keep writing in here just to make myself feel better if I do get blindsided. I just remembered that Ryan told me she was telling Carly that she is voting me out... why the eff would you lie at this point, lol. FML

[Faith]

Keep your head high and hope for the best. you did better than ol' faith.

[Colleen]

um wow........ lollllll like legit shock

[Colleen]

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Week 15

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So I just posted my Rites of Passages. I was a bit too honest for some people but why sugar coat it? Not everyone connects so no point being fake. I hope people appreciate the truth / realness. It does kinda suck to realise that you don't really care for majority of the people in the game But I doubt they care about me so whatever yo.

I appreciate that Ryan and Ellen voted to keep me... like I'm so grateful. I literally was shocked because I was expecting the worst. I feel so bad now for the things that I've said about Ellen but you can't blame me. How was I supposed to trust her when she lied about the vote to me? It felt so suss and weird. IDK how to explain it. I'm still a bit mad about the Ben thing but she was always truthful to me so I can't hold it against her. I'm sorry for thinking you were fake I definitely woulda been so devo if she did vote me out. Can you say that I'm glad that I'm a level-headed player and not someone who explodes... I would have guaranteed my eviction had I flipped out over the Ben thang.

I love the F3 <3333 It's epic but obviously Ellen and Ryan stand out more than me I'm cool with that... but that's why Carly is a dumbass, lol. We needed eachother to have a shot to win. Y U SO DUMB??? It sucks that this game isn't a F3 because I want both of them at the end but if that happened... I wouldn't be in it So obvi that can't happen which means I gotta win this endurance competition. I don't want either of them to win and like take me to the finals because they think I'm the "easy" beat. I want the power for onceeeeeee so I'll be finally running this like like like a circus lulzz

Alright that's it.

[Colleen]

LOL @ Tina and Jonah commenting on my thing.

[Colleen]

A question for the IC because I don't wanna do it and mess it up...

3:00-3:29 = 1 post every minute
3:30-3:59 = 2 posts every minute
4:00-4:29 = 3 posts every minute
4:30-4:59 = 4 posts every minute
5:00-5:29 = 5 posts every minute
5:30-5:59 = 6 posts every minute
ect

Pretty much that? lol

[Colleen]

Jan 23, 2013 22:57:32 GMT -5 Colleen said:

LOL @ Tina and Jonah commenting on my thing.

Not as good as Dominic's



I missed the ""

[Colleen]

K THIS SONG LEGIT MELTS MY HEART

[Colleen]

Well that sucked....... lol
I had so many tabs opened that I didn't even notice that I forgot to submit something. I wanna SCREAM & SHOUT forreallllllz. I hope it's enough but idk fml. It's definitely due to being tired as... like i literally had to go to the bathroom to wash my face lol. Oh well, I guess extra sleep for me. I have work in 5 hours.

[annie]

I love yoooooou <333

[Colleen]

Jan 24, 2013 9:32:41 GMT -5 annie said:

I love yoooooou <333

[Colleen]

Well that is quite surprising. I really thought that I lost and to win by 10 minutes is insane man. I guess I finally got the power that I wanted



It does suck to choose between these girls because as I've said, I would love to see them both at the end. I hate that one of them is leaving thanks to me. I guess I won't feel that bad because I didn't make any promises to either one.

Time to read my pms..

[Colleen]

Man this decision is hard...... I thought I knew what I wanted to do (take Ellen). I think she has played the best game no doubts about it. AMAZING social game and good at challenges. She definitely is the KIM of gvse. Also the fact that I was close to her. Even though the Jury do seem pissed at her (the only flaw in her game, bad jury management), they could change their minds and I'll lose in a landslide. I think it would be cool to take out the best player and send her to the jury, lol.

Ryan has played a good game too. I think it would be harder to beat her because I don't think anyone is mad at her even though she told me some people are pissed at her.

I have like a 35% chance of winning this game... it seems like my decision is "who do I want to win" not "who do I think I can beat" lol.

I'll post my decision in a few hours... I've been gone all day (sleeping/work) so I never knew that I won until I got home.

[Colleen]

My options were;

vote out Ryan because I am closer to Ellen
or
vote out Ellen because she has played the best game.


I voted Ellen out. It took me a while to submit my vote. I just feel super bad about it. I like her a lot and think she deserved to make the finals so bad. But the thing is, I can't bank on the jury remaining bitter. If I want to have a chance to win... I had to take Ryan to the finals because I think my game is just as good as hers. I would look like a fool against Ellen because she controlled majority of the game. Yeah, my game was so clean compared to hers but whatevs. Plus I'm kinda getting back at her jokes! This is a big move that I made. I'm glad that I wasn't dragged to the finals =)

May the best woman win.

I loved this final 3.