Scream & Shout [confessional]

[Colleen]

Colleen's Confessional



There is where I'll write my thoughts about the game.

[Colleen]

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Pre Game

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Well I'm super excited to be playing this game. I love the board and graphics... plus the fact that me and Morgan go way back I've been looking for an org ever since SBB11 ended to put ~energy~ into and it seems like this will be the one.

I love the whole concept of not using AIM since it will keep identities hidden. I think it will be interesting since AIM is the main source of communication in ORGs but ofcourse we can use PMs or the chat. I'm still not sure if I should alias or not, lol. I think I'll be myself (personality wise) but maybe just don't mention I'm aussie or whatever. I don't wanna have pre-existing relationships... they kinda tie you down since I'm loyal and everything.

The one thing that is annoying about the chat though is the fact that you have to be "visible" if you wanna chat to people one and one, lol. Like you always have to enter the chat and whatnot. I don't mind "group" chatting but I prefer one on one. I'm gonna have to make an effort to be in the chat as much as possible since I feel like people will bond by being in it. So that will be my strategy It will show who is active / threats and maybe expose alliances, lol. Like if the same people are always on at the same time. We'll see.

I managed to do a little bit of socialising earlier and it was alright. Morgan did a survivor trivia which was fun and definitely made it easier to participate. Everyone seemed pretty cool but I would love to get to know them more one on one. The only person who left an impression from the chat was Ryan, lol. She is like a survivor junkie and if we ever need to know something about survivor, she's like the wikipedia. Altho she seems kinda like a threat right off the bat Oh oops I forgot about Liam. He was the only one I had a conversation with privately. I think he messaged everyone privately though since Ryan mentioned how Liam messaged her saying "hey man" or something like that. I like Liam and will definitely keep up the communication with him since he was able to keep the convo so that is a plus for me.

I haven't talked to my daughter yet except for a PM back and forth. All she said was "hello madre" #_# I hope she is more interesting the next time we talk. I went in the chat just before and met Leo and Ben. Leo was nice but boring, lol... I guess I'm gonna have to make an effort next time I talk to him. Ben on the other hand was awesome, lol. We definitely connect and can't wait to see how this progresses.

1:41 AM [Ben] I want a cat. *meow*
1:44 AM [Colleen]  
1:44 AM [Colleen] i like pussy
1:44 AM [Colleen] i mean cat
1:44 AM [Colleen]
1:44 AM [Ben] Are you a lesbian, Colleen?
1:44 AM [Colleen] i actually prefer dogs   *woof*
1:44 AM [Colleen]  
1:44 AM [Colleen] no woof sound
1:44 AM [Ben] Omg that's prejudice against dogs...
1:44 AM [Colleen] no... i'm not a lesbian
1:45 AM [Colleen] i just find females attractive     lolllllll #bestofbothworlds
1:45 AM [Ben] HA HA HA
1:45 AM [Ben] I can relate to you
1:45 AM [Ben] I think bisexuality is the best of both worlds
1:47 AM [Colleen] yeah
1:47 AM [Colleen] like hannah montanna
1:50 AM [Ben] Miley Cyrus is a lesbian
1:53 AM [Colleen] omg   
1:53 AM [Colleen] well she kinda looks like one now so
1:53 AM [Ben] Exactly   
1:53 AM [Colleen] rockin' the dyke spike
1:53 AM [Ben] Hahaha
1:53 AM [Colleen] but omg, shes about to get married to a hot aussie

Well that is all for now

[Colleen]

BTW I love Pitch Perfect

[Colleen]

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Week 1

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Well I haven't had a chance to socialise but I doubt this challenge will be that hard. I hope people share other people's answers with me as well, ect. I'm gonna be open with my stuff so hopefully people are the same with me.

[Colleen]

Like an hour ago, I realised how it would have been cool to lie about my bio to everyone, lol. Since the results won't be shown or whatever... it's not like people would figure out that I lied. I would only tell my partner (Paige) my real information. I wonder if anyone is lying tho... I suspect at least one person to do so

I managed to socialise with quite a few people today. I really like Ellen (we share the same plastic surgeon), AJ and Dominic. I don't like Chase he rubbed me the wrong way for real. I mentioned in the chat how I find Abi horrible and he said I was horrible. I do realise he probably was joking but he could at least add a simple "lol" or "jk" or smiley face or something. He's on mah shitlist if I had one

10:52 AM [Ellen] omg
10:52 AM [Ellen] looove
10:53 AM [Ellen] MILFs
10:55 AM [Colleen]  
10:55 AM [Colleen] same here
10:55 AM [Colleen] i'm so hawt   
10:55 AM [Colleen] but so are you
10:56 AM [Ellen] you're the hawtest   
10:57 AM [Colleen] thanks   
10:58 AM [Ellen] Hopefully we're in the same boat!
11:05 AM [Colleen] same here
11:05 AM [Colleen] i think we will be. i love that we're milfs   
11:05 AM [Ellen] IK, people prob think we are lying lmao
11:06 AM [Ellen] I wrote a confessional about how I am really 45, sorry about it if you don't believe me
11:06 AM [Ellen] I'm jelly though that you're the Wino, classy
11:07 AM [Colleen]  
11:08 AM [Colleen] sounds fun
11:08 AM [Colleen] my confessionals have been boring
11:08 AM [Colleen] my new acronym is EILF jk
11:08 AM [Ellen] Ellen You'd Like to Fuck lmao?
11:11 AM [Colleen] yes
11:11 AM [Colleen] awkward
11:11 AM [Colleen] haha jk
11:12 AM [Ellen] haha not at all
11:12 AM [Ellen] CILK
11:13 AM [Colleen] lollllll
11:14 AM [Colleen] WAT
11:14 AM [Colleen] you want to kill me?
11:16 AM [Ellen] NEVA
11:16 AM [Ellen] haha
11:16 AM [Ellen] i meant CILF
11:16 AM [Ellen]  sorry
11:18 AM [Colleen]  you're a succubus
11:24 AM [Ellen] Lmao only when exposed to sunlight!   
11:27 AM [Colleen] do you sparkle as well?
11:28 AM [Ellen] Of course, I don't sweat, I glisten.
11:29 AM [Colleen]  
11:29 AM [Colleen] love it   

And I found this interesting;

11:09 AM [Liam] Ellen was asking who I'd want to be on a tribe with, so I said you.
11:16 AM [Colleen] oh thank you
11:16 AM [Colleen] i would love to be on the same tribe as you too
11:16 AM [Liam] Always good to have fun people to play the game with.
11:17 AM [Liam] Of course, when I asked Ellen who she wanted, she just gave me a non answer   
11:18 AM [Colleen]  
11:18 AM [Colleen] she was fishing then
11:19 AM [Liam] I know right. I thought she might be, but I fugured I'd be honest and she how she'd react.   
11:19 AM [Liam] Guess I know now   
11:20 AM [Liam] *see how
11:20 AM [Colleen]  true

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I'm flattered if Liam really did say me to Ellen. I think I like him the most atm I hope I can make an alliance with him sometime soon and our bond strengthens. I told Ellen I put her as #17 on my bootlist thing but I feel like she is close to a lot of people even tho we connect. I think it's smarter if I put my partner and Liam since I kinda trust them more atm... even if I haven't talked to Paige, lol.


Anyway this challenge is going well. I think I need like 3 more bios and I'm good to submit my answers.

Well that's it

[Colleen]

Well I sent Paige and Carly my answers. Paige doesn't seem all that active but she's my partner/daughter so I need her in the game. I was talking to Carly and she asked how many bios did I have and I was like 16, lol... because I figured since the deadline is soon almost everyone would have almost everyone but girlfriend is like "6". AWKWARD. So I offered to send her my answers since I'm a lovely person and all. I hope she doesn't tell people that but ugh, I bet she asked Ben and Ellen too (they're in the chatroom as well).

Ben and Ellen helped me with the rest of my bios list which I love them for <33 I sent 2 people my bios just to look good, lol. I mean, afterall I do have their bios so it's fair I also sent Liam a PM which I meant to do yesterday but completely forgot if he wanted to compare or whatever.

Anywho that is all. I'm still loving Ellen and Ben.

[Colleen]

I want an alliance with Ellen, Ben & Liam. I hope we end up on the same tribe/boat or else it won't be able to blossom.

[Colleen]

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Week 2

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Well I did sorta get the tribe that I was hoping for however Liam is not on it. That's okay with me since I'm with Ellen and Ben. I hope Liam and Paige survive I'm curious about who got the top two scores, lol. It would be interesting how the school yard pickings went. I feel like Ellen is the most liked on our tribe followed by Ryan. I don't mind Ryan but I haven't really had a one on one with her. It's hard having these when everyone is in the chat #_# However I do like talking to Ellen and Ben one on one whilst chatting in the chat. As much as I like Ellen, she's a threat and I'm gonna keep on kissing her ass. It's genuine tho cuz I do like her but I gotta watch out. I know she wants to work with me & Ben but she probably says it to everyone, lol. Ben told me how the first night when tribes were announced... him, Ellen, Ryan, Yuri and Dominic were in a chat and they all were like "Let's stick together" or something #_# FML. I hope it wasn't serious I need to work on my relationships with people... especially Carly. She should trust me since I helped her out with the first challenge.

I have to say tho... I don't really get along with my tribe, lol. I mean all they talk about is college like blahhhhhhhhhh #_# I know college or university or high school rules your life at that age but ffs can you talk about something more interesting? I can't relate to them cuz I'm a college/university drop out oopsy daisy. Not only do they just talk about college but they talk about stupid cats. What's with people being cat lovers? Where the dogs @? woof woof. AND on top of that they always quote stuff from movies aka Mean Girls. As much as I love the movie (it's actually my favourite or one of) it's getting tiring. Maybe I'm just bitchy because I feel awkward in the group chat I did try my best tho to contribute but I am more of the quieter ones unless something I really like is brought up.

Anywho, I hope we win the challenge. I think if we lose, Tina will get the boot since people don't seem to like her. I don't really care as long as it ain't me.

I'll write my thoughts on each person from my tribe later tonight and on that note... that's it!

[Colleen]

BTW before the tribes... I actually started to get along with Chase, lol. However our relationship was more of the flirt kind so I'm glad he is not on my tribe because I wouldn't want to keep up the flirting and whatnot. I mean, I don't mind flirting once in a while but if your relationship is solely based on lame jokes / sex innuendos / ect ect... then gtfo pls haha

Here's a lil sneak peak of our ~exchange~ via PMs... there was more in the chat

Chase: It'll be good to actually talk later. I love an older woman
Me: Thanks I like younger guys I'm from the town called cougar...
Chase: Perfect. I make an excellent pool boy if you need one
Me: i don't have a pool but i'll hire you anyway
Chase: If you need help trimming your bushes, I can maintain your garden


AWK.

Also super sad to see Leo eliminated since I feel like he was nice even though on the boring side.

[Colleen]

[Yuri] sorry I couldn't stay on, I was getting really sick.
[Colleen] hope you get better Yuri
[Colleen] and it was a badass clutch
[Ellen] aww sorry you're sick!
[Yuri] them not finishing really helped.
User Tina has entered this room.
User Tina has signed out.
[Yuri] OK, hi and bye Tina
[Colleen] lmao
[Carly] I hope you feel better Yuri!
[Yuri] Thanks Carly - it feels like some stomach bug, ugh


WHAT? AM I INVISIBLE YOU BITCH LOL jk but seriously #_#

Anywayyyyyyyy so happy that we won the IC because I bet if we lost the vote woulda end up being between Ben and Carly due to it being their fault that we lost They did a badass clutch tho <3

[Colleen]

lol.......... my daughter sucks #_# she obviously needed me to hold her hand / breast feed her haha

Well I hope it won't affect me or anything. Now I will reveal to people that Paige was my daughter. I probably will only tell Ellen and Ben though.

[Host]

Week 3 Questions!

1. Who do you trust the most on your tribe?
2. Who do you think is "running things" on your tribe?
3. Do you think you have anything to be worried about?
4. What do you think of the secret partners twist?
5. Are you worried about the Locked Door?

[Colleen]

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Week 3 ~ Questions

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1. Who do you trust the most on your tribe?

Ellen and Ben. I'm not so sure how much I can trust Ellen since she's the most active and probably is aligned with everyone. She is a threat but I really do like aligning with people I can converse with despite their threatening nature.

2. Who do you think is "running things" on your tribe?

Ellen and Ryan. I think those two are the top dogs on our tribe. They may be running things now but in the future, I'm(a be) running this... like like like a cirucs That's whats up yo!

3. Do you think you have anything to be worried about?

Not really... I think I have proven to be somewhat social and active to keep me safe for a few rounds. I obviously gotta pick up the socialness though so people wanna keep me around even if I'm not the strongest in challenges.

4. What do you think of the secret partners twist?

I'm not really sure what to think. Maybe if the secret partners make it to the merge you get some sort of prize? If that is the case, then fml. No prizes for me

5. Are you worried about the Locked Door?

Nah. I don't really like idols or whatever it is. I do hope someone I am close to finds it though

[Colleen]

Very happy that we won the IC. We pulled of an amazing clutch, lol. People on our tribe were getting cocky and we almost lost! How embarassing would that have been... the other tribe had great strategy however failed at the last moments. That is why you should never be cocky because it's never a plus despite what Britney says!

Well since it's Xmas here, I'm gonna keep this confessional short. Apparently there is an alliance between me, Ryan, Ellen and Ben. The other day, I mentioned to Ryan how I like her, Ben and Ellen the most privately. Oh btw me and Ryan are like lesbians lovers~~~ lmaooo she has a thing for me. Anyway then when Dominic left the chat, she brings it up infront of Ellen #_# I was like ermmm how odd but at the same time, I'm glad she was the first to make a move. I'm hoping this alliance is real though because I do like Ellen, Ben and Ryan the most out of everyone. Both Ellen and Ryan said that no one has talked alliances but I highly doubt that for some reason but meh, gonna roll with it for now. Ryan also said how Tina and Yuri are on the outs which is fine by me

I had a lovely chat with Ellen and feel super close to her now. I even told her where I'm really from because of our conversation. I thought I had to be totally honest due to that. (I've told people I'm canadian, lol)

Anywho that's it

[Colleen]

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Week 4

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I was real surprised when the tribes swap, lol. I wasn't expecting it at all and I remember thinking wtf?? when I looked at the memory wall. After it sunk in, I realised how lucky I am to be on this tribe since we have majority if tribal lines are intact.

Ellen sent me this PM;

Wow a swap... I think we're in a halfway decent spot over here, a lot will ride on Tina and whether or not Yuri ever comes back! Glad we're still together though, hopefully we can chat tonight! Let me know your thoughts on all this!

-Ellen

And this was my reply;

I was like "wat" when I looked at this lol
holy hell but at least we have majority lol and darn we have chase on our tribe. i was so happy not to be on the tribe with him cuz everytime we talk, it was just flirting. i hate when relationships in orgs are just solely flirting ugh

Hahaha yeah! I wasn't liking the idea of Chase being on the same tribe but it hasn't really been a problem. I've been a bit busy as I'm sure a lot of people have been due to christmas and working. I don't really talk to anyone privately besides Ellen which is fine by me <3 I like talking to her because our convos flow and it's not awkward. I will try and pick up the communication with others though. I wish Liam was on my tribe... I miss him lol. He was the only person from Liberty that I actually liked. I hope Ben and Ryan can survive on the other tribe too!

I did nothing in the challenge I felt bad but it was a hard challenge and I really didn't have time to go through 123204034034 animals. I've been multitasking so my focus hasn't been 100% on this game and especially when I'm in the chat. I'm always off doing other shiz. It would have been easier if people a] explained it to me b] wrote down which animals they tried. Anywho it didn't matter regardless because Yuri was a no show but I'm seriously like Tina in a challenge sense but people like me I gotta pick up the slack tho in the next challenge for real.

Anyway basically me, Ellen and Dominic are gonna stick together. Yuri is probably gonna leave this Judgement since he's gone inactive (hope he is okay irl). Dominic/Ellen want Tina out though because she's been acting like a troll ever since the beginning. I mean, I do love a troll because lately I've been playing other orgs with the intention of trolling (like talking stupid outrageous shit in conversations) but people end up liking me lmaoooo but Tina is just annoying af. Apparently she has an idol? idgaf. I highly doubt it but if she does, then goodie. We hope she uses it this round to waste it. She apparently been causing some dramz and that's it really, lol.