Scream & Shout [confessional]

[Colleen]

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Week 5

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So Yuri left... no big deal. But major LOL @ Tina wasting her idol <3 I'm actually surprised that she had it #_# I hope she doesn't have another one up her ass. Tina has been extra bitchy lately which is kinda understandable since we did just try and vote her ass off. I wasn't having ANY of it though.

11:41 AM [Tina] I'm Abi and you're all RC
11:41 AM [Dominic] Do we all have a different one? cause if so, once chase solves his, y ou can start too
11:41 AM [Colleen] RC > Abi no offense
11:41 AM [Jonah] i have
11:41 AM [Jonah] pseurisy
11:42 AM [Jonah] the blue one
11:42 AM [Tina] SHUT THE FUCK UP
11:42 AM [Dominic] chase was esophagitis
11:42 AM [Chase] yup
11:42 AM [Tina] NEVER SAY THAT AGAIN YOU CUNT
11:42 AM [Colleen] okay so mine must be pneumonia
11:42 AM [Chase] Colleen, you are wrong
11:42 AM [Colleen] yay yellow is my fave color
11:42 AM [Colleen] nope, sorry chase
11:42 AM [Chase] Abi>RC
11:42 AM [Colleen] and tina, please i will say what i want
11:42 AM [Chase] 100%
11:42 AM [Colleen] abi was a troll... so i guess you are right she is you
11:42 AM [Chase] She was fantastic
11:42 AM [Chase] Goddess
11:42 AM [Tina] Bitch, I'm fabulous.
11:42 AM [Colleen]  she was terrible
11:43 AM [Chase] You are terrible
11:43 AM [Tina] I'm smarter than all of you
11:43 AM [Colleen] terrible people like terrible people   
11:43 AM [Colleen] so we all know who is terrible chase
11:43 AM [Colleen]  
11:43 AM [Tina] I know every move you're going to make before you make it.
11:44 AM [Colleen]  
11:44 AM [Tina] I know that Colleen is clearly defending her actions and feels safe confronting me in a crowded room because she belives you're with her
11:44 AM [Colleen] i would say it regardless   
11:44 AM [Colleen] i dont like abi in survivor and will always think RC > abi
11:45 AM [Chase] ick
11:45 AM [Chase] Have you heard her laugh?
11:45 AM [Tina] However, Chase has not once defended Colleen as I attack her by name so it's telling that she means very little for him
11:45 AM [Colleen] i have heard her laugh but
11:45 AM [Tina] However, it's obvious that Chase is with Colleen
11:45 AM [Colleen] i will ignore that
11:45 AM [Colleen] other than that, i like that she was a strong female   
11:46 AM [Dominic] oh dear god this is going to take forever. lmao
11:46 AM [Tina] Oh please, Dominic.
11:46 AM [Tina] It's easy.
11:46 AM [Tina] Don't complain.
11:46 AM [Dominic] Yeah waiting is just annoying. lawls
11:49 AM [Tina] See, you don't want to admit it but you know I'm right. If you didn't believe me you would have said so, but you just casually dismissed it. You know I'm right.
11:49 AM [Dominic] Tina, are you done with your syringe?
11:49 AM [Tina] 5 posts away
11:49 AM [Dominic] OMG <3 you're doing great   
11:50 AM [Dominic] at this rate, we'll be finished before they all even sign on lmao
11:51 AM [Tina] The only reason I'm doing this is to see what you'll do when faced with the reality that you need me.
11:51 AM [Jonah] Tina, I want the ginger between your legs.
11:52 AM [Chase] ew. Asian ginger babies...
11:52 AM [Tina] Will you vote off the bitch or will you just let her stay because she's a necessary evil?

God her act is tiring but she does seem pretty smart. Meh.

I hope we win the next challenge. We were such beasts <3 now we don't have to worry about anything since we're all done. Let's just hope that no one made any mistakes and we are the fastest if it ends in a tiebreaker. I don't wanna go to tribal because you never know what can happen but at the same time, I will be nervous for the original Ellis on the other tribe if they went to tribal since the original Liberty appear to have numbers.

Oh and I also flirted with Chase for a few minutes. Awk city. Well that's it

[Colleen]

-__________- that's all I gotta say lol

I bet me/Ellen woulda had 90 mins if she wasn't on her phone... lord

[Colleen]

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Week 6

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I felt bad for not helping out much with the posting but I slept over at my friend's appartment so I didn't have time to post much other than the 100 that I contributed, lol. Chase and Dominic did all the work with Ellen helping out a bit. Tina did jack shit, not surprised.

I think we have lost the chall tho since I'm the only one who has posted. I'm not sure if the people on my tribe threw it or what but it kinda looks like it now especially since I got this PM from Dominic;

No Subject)
« Message sent Today at 2:34am »

Omg please log on and PM me ASAP

dafuq? it doesn't matter anyway since we will just boot Tina or Chase.

That's it... happy new year guys

[Colleen]

8:29 PM [Dominic] So... how would you feel about throwing this challenge?

haha okay so that confirmed it

Well ty Chase and Dominic for wasting your time. I would have been pissed if they threw the chall and I posted ALOT.

[Colleen]

I deleted my post in the challenge because Dominic told me to do so. I really hate how I'm playing right now... I'm basically a sheep and just have to "baaa" every round. I want to take control and do things on my own. It's downright disgusting that I have to do what people want me to do. I usually don't play like this and I find it extremely annoying.

I should blindside Dominic for the lulz (get Tina and Chase to vote with me) but then I would put myself into a shitty position. KDLFSLDFLDSF;LDSFLDS;FDSDF

[Colleen]

As I wrote that above ^^ Dominic was like "sorry for being bossy" and all this nice stuff lol... I am so bipolar! I won't try to pull anything because I ain't evillllllllll and actually like these people. I just hate not having an input in decisions or whatever.

It's pretty obvious that we threw the chall if our score is only 0 #_# I didn't see the big deal with having at least 3 for our score but you never know if the other tribe threw the chall as well.

Also Ellen is a real girl... I'm shocked tbh! I thought she was gonna be a gay guy since majority of females are lmaooooo but we sent eachother a voice clip of the accent tag thingie. She has a really nice accent yo!

And she made these the other day lol;



Ellen and I



Tina lol.

[Colleen]

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Week 7

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So we had another tribe swap and the most important thing is that we have majority if the original Ellis people stick together. I'm pleased to be on the same tribe with Liam and Kendell seems nice as well. The shitty thing is that Ellen is on exile and like Dominic wants us to throw again -________- I mean, it's a smart strategy because we keep our numbers on the other tribe and gain Ellen but the only thing I hate is that I would feel bad voting Liam out which I think Dominic would probably push since he told me his partner was Kendell #_# Now I'm kinda worried that if we throw the challenge, imagine if Dominic sides with Kendell/Liam and votes me or Ben out. That could be just me being paranoid but ughhhhhhh.

Dominic comes across super nice but he's annoying being the leader. I really should attempt to blindside him for the lulz and for being over confident. It would be pretty funny, lol. But oh soooo mean.

I hope I get the idol as well but won't hold my breath. I guessed on a few when I shoulda waited but I want the best chance to win the idol (if people tie). I hope my guesses were right I kinda threw Dominic on the wrong trail with a few because I don't want him to win the idol because then he would have too much power.

That's it for now

[Colleen]

Okay this is why I shouldn't write confessionals as I go lmaooo since I do a 180 all the time

9:19 PM [Dominic] Kendell and Liam just approached me saying "Liam and I want to work with you and get to the idol."
9:19 PM [Dominic] and then "lie to the other two"
9:19 PM [Dominic] I'm just letting you know. I know you won't repeat that. But WOW they're sneaky right off the bat.
9:20 PM [Dominic] They want me to lie to you and tell you that Liam and I are partners...

So now I don't feel bad at all for Kendell and Liam if they're gonna lie about that.

I guess it makes sense for them to assume that Dominic would work with them cuz Kendell/Dominic are partners but I'm surprised they're not considering Ben since they were just on the same tribe as him It's still annoying that Dominic holds the power on this tribe... can't wait to take control in the future.

[Colleen]

9:52 PM [Dominic] Thank you for being such an amazing ally, Colleen   I honestly couldn't do this without you!


LOL if he is just buttering me up then it's working. I feel so terrible for saying negative things about him but I'm not really since I do like him just don't like that he has the most power haha


And another LOL @ this

10:35 PM [Liam] My "partner" is Dominic.
10:35 PM [Liam] Co(nstruction) workers.
10:36 PM [Colleen] =O
10:36 PM [Liam] A little obvious,   
10:37 PM [Colleen] mine is austin, he's my son
10:38 PM [Liam] Oh. Got a great partner on that one, eh?
10:38 PM [Colleen] yeah   first boot -.-

The funny thing about this is that Liam told Dominic that his partner is Austin but we know that Ellen's partner is Austin And I know that Dominic is partners with Kendell.

major lulzz

[Colleen]

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Week 8

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The vote is Liam. Me, Dominic and Ben will be voting him. I hope he doesn't have the idol but he shouldn't have it since we lied about our partners, ect.

I am somewhat nervous about this vote because Dominic could easily blindside us by siding with Kendell/Liam. He is the swing vote for this round and he keeps writing "kiss ass" ish posts and stuff which is making me paranoid. Like the OTT nice behaviour. Hopefully he's just being a nice genuine guy 2 much powwwwwwwer

And fml @ not getting the idol

[Colleen]

Dominic just told me has the idol... lol. Well that's good since he told me. Dom said he's only gonna tell me and Ellen. I will ask Ben when he comes online if Dominic has told him. I feel like I can trust Ben more than Dom in the long run.

And Liam just sent me this;

Colleen,

I've wanted to work with you since the 1st day and I hope you feel the same. I know that people get voted out for strategic reasons in this game, and I realize that I could be on the chopping block, since there are 3 old Ellis members on this tribe. I just wanted to say that Kendall and I are voting for Ben. Also, I won the mystery box (the password was "nightmare" if you want to check). Inside was a vote nullifier that nullifies one vote of my choosing. I'm going to nullify Ben's vote. If you and Dominic vote for me or Kendall, then the vote will be 2-2.

I think that we can go far together, and I'd like to see Ben go. I just think you should know what I have planned, because I do want to work with you. I feel I deserve to make the merge, as I've done more than Ben in challenges (you've only seen one with both of us, but he didn't do much on Ellis). If there's a tie, I'm going to do my best to win.

The choice is yours, but I hope that we can work together.

-Liam

WTH lol I wasn't aware a prize was up for grabs. This blows. I'm not sure if I should tell Liam that I'm voting him or what since if I do, he then may go to Ben and try to vote me out meaning that I will be in the tiebreaker or whatever #_# ughh

[Colleen]

The thing that sucks about this is that I really did like Liam at the beginning :/ and because of being on the opposite tribe majority of the time it obviously affected our relationship. I'm a super loyal person so even though I don't like that Dom holds all the power right now, I have to stick to the alliance (Original Ellis).

If the vote does tie and Ben/Liam face off... good luck to the both of them.

[Colleen]

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Week 10

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Sorry for being slack at writing. Well to recap Ben staying was good news for me I think I would have been alright if Liam did stay because we did have a connection at the start but it's definitely better news for me that Ben survived. I didn't know how to feel when we read the results when it originally said he was eliminated

Now the next challenge... I did jack shit I'm really bad at that kinda shit so I just let Dominic and Ellen, ect do the work because I didn't care if we won because we woulda had the "numbers". Yeah, I put that in airquotes cuz you may think you are safe but in some cases you obviously aren't.

So now we have merged which is exciting because it's almost the end and things should start to get intense It's funny though to make it this far because I barely contributed during tribes, lol. Well except for the posting challs but that's how you play survivor ladies and gentlemen! I do a half assed job at the challenges and be likeable... not tinable. Oh wait, I mean unlikeable I feel like I have a soild alliance (me, Ellen, Ryan, Ben) but there's still apart of me that is abit iffy. I observe how others interact with eachother and everyone is like so OTT friendly, it's weird. I don't know if they're being genuine or fake as hell. I sometimes think that Ellen-Dominic-Ryan are the main 3 but then they (Ellen/Ryan) act more closer to me and Ben #_# It's confusing that's for sure. I find this game a bit different than all the others that I've played. I mean I do adore Ben, Ellen and Ryan but I felt like in other games, the bonds are more real and I really like care for them in a game sense. I don't know... it's weird. I'm still gonna be loyal cuz I don't see the point in being a backstabber. I know alot of people are going to lie and be super deceitful but I can be just as shady as the next person. I've realised though that like most of these people are not my cup of tea... oh... well I don't drink tea so I should say, not my cup of flavoured milk

I am kinda worried about the partners. AJ/Carly, Ben/Chase & Dominic/Kendell. I feel like the original Ellis tribemates will try and protect their partner I have noticed Ben and Dominic already doing so. Dominc is more obvious though which is annoying. He pissed me off in the challenge because he told everyone what to do/who to go after and it was clear he was protecting Kendell since no one was assigned to take her out. (Ben did it on his own merit lol) Anyway, I spent like over 2 hours chasing chase (lulz) and we were one post away from eliminating him but Ryan messes up, ughhhh. I honestly wanted to scream (&shout) because it was a waste of time when we have two other people to fallback on if somehow Chase won immunity. But nope, King Dominic wanted Chase out because he has to go. blah blah blah. It's all about Dominic.

4:54 PM [Colleen] i want to go
4:54 PM [Dominic] me fucking too :-\
4:56 PM [Colleen] does it matter to eliminate chase?
4:56 PM [Colleen] or is he gonna be the first boot
4:56 PM [Colleen] cant we vote out aj or kendell
4:57 PM [Dominic] Chase can't win this comp. he needs to go this roudn
4:57 PM [Colleen] but aj,kendell and chase are the same
4:57 PM [Colleen] it shouldnt matter who wins
4:57 PM [Dominic] Yeah I know, but we just think Chase is more dangerous
4:58 PM [Dominic] He's talked to people about voting me off. And now you
4:59 PM [Colleen] i wonder why he wants to vote me
4:59 PM [Colleen] since ive been following him this chall
4:59 PM [Dominic] idk he just needs to go
4:59 PM [Colleen] all im gonna say is that
4:59 PM [Colleen] i dont think this round is a big deal
4:59 PM [Colleen] to me, chase kendell and aj are the same
5:00 PM [Colleen] i dont wanna waste anymore time tryna eliminate him
5:00 PM [Colleen] when we have two other people
5:00 PM [Colleen] we can vote out
5:00 PM [Colleen] its not a must for him to leave this rd imo
5:01 PM [Dominic] your move Colleen

Anyway he definitely rubbed me the wrong way and hopefully others will wanna take him out soon. (I know Ben does and he told me Ryan wants him out before F5???) And now I've made an enemy in Chase even though I'm not sure what kind of relationship we had to begin with. I vented to Ellen how I was feeling and she was being all understanding... IDK I wanna believe Ellen is with me more than Dominic but it just seems like they would be closer cuz they're more active and strong in challenges. I think Ellen is the KIM of this season. I LOVE KIM!!!!!!!!!!

Wow I wrote a lot and most of it was just me rambling, lol. I'll try not to slack off again and start being more social. For this round; The vote right now is for Chase but me/Ben/Ellen are gonna try and push for Kendell. I think Ryan will agree to it since we're supposed to be F4 and Dominic would have to agree because 4 against 1 bitch!

BTW I really hate all these prizes in the game. I want a freaking prize #_# So far we know Dom has the idol and Ellen told me she has this lightening prize or something.

And the OTT friendly stuff I was talking about above;

9:23 PM [Ellen] I'm absolutely exhausted, Ben I LOVE you, thank you so much, I have no doubt you could have taken me to the cleaners if you wanted to in that challenge. Colleen thanks for being here to support us this challenge sucked!
9:23 PM [Colleen] youre too sweet ellen
9:23 PM [Colleen] and ben you a sweetheart too
9:23 PM [Ellen] Aww no you are <3
9:23 PM [Ellen] you're both like two of the most genuine people I've ever met
9:24 PM [Ellen] in these things
9:24 PM [Ben] Haha yes, it's gonna be a difficult task to approach Dominic about that. I feel like I'm forcing this on everyone, but it just seems like what's fair :-\
9:24 PM [Ben] You two are my favorite two in this game <3 Shh
9:24 PM [Ellen] I'm so glad to be playing with you both! *end sappiness*
9:24 PM [Ellen] <3
9:24 PM [Ben] Me too <3333 awwwh
9:24 PM [Colleen] awww
9:24 PM [Ben] I love you Ellen babyyyyy ))

lol. Half of me is like "awwwwww so cute" and the other half is just like "dafuq" lol.

P.S Why wasn't this my cast photo? I'm so hawwt



I think it's my character lolol someone linked it to me!

[Colleen]

The best thing about not appearing strong in challenges is that if I make it towards the end, I could win some immunities, lol. I'm not that bad in challenges, it's just that I don't give it my all in most.

[Emily]

Wow you look 15 years younger here.