Post by ellen on Jan 20, 2013 19:04:09 GMT -5
1/20/13
Final Four. I've been imagining myself here since this whole crazy thing began and now that I've finally made it, it just feels absolutely surreal.
As with the merge, everything essentially resets itself at this point and it's still very much anybody's game to win or lose.
I've got an alliance to the Top Three with Carly and Ryan, but I'm also a hell of a lot closer to Colleen than I am to Carly, so from here on out, all bets are off.
Colleen probably isn't happy with me after what just went down at Judgment. She and Ben were both blindsided by my decision and I feel horrible about that but like Dominic, Ben was a huge threat to take this home.
I think that Ben's biggest mistake was trying so hard to distance himself from the rest of Ellis back when Liberty was being wiped out... he made virtually no enemies on the jury, while basically pissing off all of the people remaining in the game.
Right now I have to make sure that my bases are covered and that I'm able to run damage control on Colleen, because I need her going forward.
Ryan talks about how easy it would be for us to beat Carly in the last Immunity Challenge, but I know that deep down, in the back of her mind, she's somehow trying to set herself up so that no matter what, she'll be taken to the end.
And that's what she should be doing, but as a player trying to win myself, I'm not going to stand by and let my fate rest solely in Ryan's hands.
Honestly the relationship that Ryan and I share... it's a fascinating dynamic. Each of us has sort of been dancing around the other for this entire game, both of us knowing how deadly the other was, and yet so far, we've only made moves to secure our own spots in the end game. Things have never quite come to a head between us... yet.
We're like two queen chess pieces on a chessboard, the most powerful pieces in the game, but instead of launching an offensive on one another, it's the pawns, the rooks, the bishops and the knights who have fallen in our wake.
The truth of the matter is, everything leading up to this has been sort of a teaser; the real show is about to begin and baby, you ain't seen nothing yet.
1/21/13
Hurting people was never my goal... but unintentionally or not, it seems to have happened.
Contrary to what the jury may believe, my social interactions with them were always authentic, not self-interested or meant to be manipulative. I didn't spend hours talking to these people, getting to know about their lives and befriending them, just so that I could stab them in the back...
I signed up to play a game though... I guess at some point things just started to get very personal. It's not fun letting people down but that's how I think the people in sequester are feeling right now... let down.
And yeah, I've pulled a lot of the strings over the course of this competition but at the end of the day that's not always what earns you the winning title; the beauty of this game is that it doesn't have to be. The jurors can vote for whoever they want.
At the end of the day, I'm not a quitter, and I'll fight as hard as anyone to come out of this on top and win. If I do lose though, it's going to be on my own terms. I'm a big girl, and I'm prepared to accept whatever outcome fate holds in store for me.
Final Four. I've been imagining myself here since this whole crazy thing began and now that I've finally made it, it just feels absolutely surreal.
As with the merge, everything essentially resets itself at this point and it's still very much anybody's game to win or lose.
I've got an alliance to the Top Three with Carly and Ryan, but I'm also a hell of a lot closer to Colleen than I am to Carly, so from here on out, all bets are off.
Colleen probably isn't happy with me after what just went down at Judgment. She and Ben were both blindsided by my decision and I feel horrible about that but like Dominic, Ben was a huge threat to take this home.
I think that Ben's biggest mistake was trying so hard to distance himself from the rest of Ellis back when Liberty was being wiped out... he made virtually no enemies on the jury, while basically pissing off all of the people remaining in the game.
Right now I have to make sure that my bases are covered and that I'm able to run damage control on Colleen, because I need her going forward.
Ryan talks about how easy it would be for us to beat Carly in the last Immunity Challenge, but I know that deep down, in the back of her mind, she's somehow trying to set herself up so that no matter what, she'll be taken to the end.
And that's what she should be doing, but as a player trying to win myself, I'm not going to stand by and let my fate rest solely in Ryan's hands.
Honestly the relationship that Ryan and I share... it's a fascinating dynamic. Each of us has sort of been dancing around the other for this entire game, both of us knowing how deadly the other was, and yet so far, we've only made moves to secure our own spots in the end game. Things have never quite come to a head between us... yet.
We're like two queen chess pieces on a chessboard, the most powerful pieces in the game, but instead of launching an offensive on one another, it's the pawns, the rooks, the bishops and the knights who have fallen in our wake.
The truth of the matter is, everything leading up to this has been sort of a teaser; the real show is about to begin and baby, you ain't seen nothing yet.
1/21/13
Hurting people was never my goal... but unintentionally or not, it seems to have happened.
Contrary to what the jury may believe, my social interactions with them were always authentic, not self-interested or meant to be manipulative. I didn't spend hours talking to these people, getting to know about their lives and befriending them, just so that I could stab them in the back...
I signed up to play a game though... I guess at some point things just started to get very personal. It's not fun letting people down but that's how I think the people in sequester are feeling right now... let down.
And yeah, I've pulled a lot of the strings over the course of this competition but at the end of the day that's not always what earns you the winning title; the beauty of this game is that it doesn't have to be. The jurors can vote for whoever they want.
At the end of the day, I'm not a quitter, and I'll fight as hard as anyone to come out of this on top and win. If I do lose though, it's going to be on my own terms. I'm a big girl, and I'm prepared to accept whatever outcome fate holds in store for me.
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