Week 9

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MERGE!!!!!!! I MADE IT TO THE MERGE!!!!!!!!

I can't even tell you how excited I was last night!!! It was a tiny bit sad at the same time, I couldn't even bring myself to leave the Ellis chat!! LOL such a loser. But yeah, I was super excited to have made the merge.

I wasn't on for long last night, but I did FINALLY get to talk to Dominic. He was really nice for the few minutes we chatted and said he wants to catch up with me more. I also got to talk to Ellen for those few minutes. She said she really liked me from our one chat we had at the first round of the game, and she wished she had been on a tribe with me this whole time.

Maybe things are looking okay. Maybe I'll be able to speed-bond with them and get myself in some better position. However, it'll be hard. With Leah gone, it makes me the only person that Ellen, Dominic and Colleen have never been on a tribe with.

I'm still super excited to see what will happen this round!!

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WOW so what a crazy challenge. To be honest, it was kind of a big clusterfuck, but like Ben said, it was fun once we knew what we were doing.

The only thing that pissed me off about this whole challenge in general is how personally people were taking it. Like, I don't know about everyone else, but I was simply just moving around, trying to actually get something posted within the 4 minute time span. Everyone else seemed to be more concerned as to WHERE each person was moving.

Dominic, for one, was freaking out on me about how I was going towards his color and how he did nothing to me, and how he KNEW someone was telling me to go for his color. (false). Like calm your tits!!! I am simply doing this challenge and I'm not specifically going after anyone!!! He seriously needed to calm down.

Kendell then decided to flip her shit on Ben because Ben started to take out her pieces. Who the fuck cares!! She literally started an argument with him while Ben was just quietly doing the challenge.

Ugh, it made me annoyed, but whatever. I think i was the first to drop out of the challenge. I need my sleep! lol. I woke up to Ellen winning immunity, which is fine for me. I really like her. She's super fun to talk to. I especially like talking to her and Ben at the same time because we're all journalism majors and everyday we have JOURNO CLUB <333

I really like our group of 10, honestly. As cheesy as it sounds, I don't want to vote anyone off, and it's going to get harder as the rounds go on. Everyone is so chill and fun to talk to. But, we have to go on with the game.

I don't know what's going to happen. I'm supposed to be working with Kendell, Chase, Carly and Ryan. However, I don't think Carly and Ryan are going to be content with that. Ben and Kendell are probably going to go after each other, and I want to still work with Ben too =/ So I'm kind of in a tough situation. I assume that all the old Ellis people are going to go after Chase or maybe even Kendell. I don't mind turning on Kendell, but I don't want to turn on Chase. The problem is that turning on Kendell is the same as turning on Chase. So yeah, I am going to have a tricky judgement ahead.

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By the way, how cute do I look?!

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JOURNO CLUB <33333

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^ You look fabulous!

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This vote sucks -___________-

I haven't talked to a single person besides Ben, so everything I know if based off what he's told me.

Basically, I assume Chase is going home tonight. He's the biggest threat between him, Kendell and myself. Ben basically confirmed this without saying it straight up. He says he wants to vote for Kendell, but Dominic doesn't want to, so they're going to have to vote for Chase. Ben doesn't even want to vote for Chase. Ben went on this long rant about how Dominic told everyone what to do in the challenge, how Dominic gets to keep Kendell around but Ben can't keep Chase, how Dominic controls everything.

So I say, why don't we blindside Dominic?

Ben says he has the idol.

Um, so what? That's why we do it now. If he plays it, Chase goes home and we're all still in a good position. And the idol will be gone too. The longer Dominic is around, the more dangerous he'll get; he'll have a greater percentage of the people in this game on his side, and he'll have his idol to protect him.

Why is Ben so hesitant about this idea? I don't understand. We could easily get the numbers. I offered to Ben that I would go out on my own, collect 3 other votes besides my own, and then Ben could be the 5th. But he just doesn't want to do it, and I don't understand.

If Ben doesn't do it, Ryan won't do it, so Carly won't do it.

I just feel like this is the time to make a move like that. It needs to be done sooner than later. However, it doesn't look like I'll be able to get the numbers.

So with that in consideration, I guess I should vote out Chase with the other Ellis people. But I really really don't want to. He's been such a great ally to me this far and I do not want to vote for him. I have no problem voting out Kendell, but I feel like Chase would take voting out Kendell as betrayal. So, I'm just going to stick out like a sore thumb, vote out Colleen or Dominic with Chase and Kendell, and just hope and pray that Ben, Ryan and Carly will have my back further down the line.

That's the plan for now, at least.

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I am NOT enjoying this round of voting. At all.

NO ONE is fucking listening to me. All I want to do is get out the biggest threat in this game. But everyone else seems to be on his dick or up his ass.

Ugh, I don't even know where to start. I just feel so alone in this game tonight. I feel like no one is talking to me, not even Ryan. She's barely telling me anything and it's making me really sad ): I understand she doesn't want her friendship with me to make her a target, but no one sees anything when we are talking privately. I wish she would just talk to me more so I'm not so out of the loop. I'm constantly asking her about things, I wish she would just help me out instead of just saying "oh people want this" "people think this" "i need to talk to people" "people are telling me this".

But back to what I was saying. I just feel like I have no idea what's going on this round. I really tried. Ben doesn't want anyone out besides Kendell, which I get, but like, there's absolutely no logic in that. Apparently he has a lot of pull because now everyone is voting for Kendell. Ryan thinks it's a stupid move and she's still willing to do it.

Carly and I talked earlier. She was all down for voting Dominic, and then right before she left, she told me she wanted to vote for Chase? I just don't understand.

Kendell is being useless in every sense of the word. As far as I can tell, she's being absolutely no help. Chase is trying to help. Honestly I'd rather Kendell leave waaaaay more than Chase, so for that I should thank Ben I guess, but still, this sucks.

I'm just at that point where I don't know what to do. I could vote for Dominic, but he's not going to go so I'm just making an enemy. I could vote out Colleen, but Ben claims she might flip later, and if I vote for her she won't. I could vote out Kendell, but Chase will be annoyed. But it looks like that's what I'll have to do.

Honestly, I don't even know what's going on because no one is telling me anything.

So I'm just going to shut up, cast a vote, and hopefully someone will take me under their wing because right now I am feeling like the loner in this game.

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I'm done for the night.

Absolutely no progress has been made. Chase talked to Ryan and Ben for awhile and he was so sure he got them to flip. Then when I asked them, they both said they didn't know.

Ryan said she is worried about losing jury votes if she votes for Dominic? Wtf?

First of all, if you present your argument well at FTC, their votes shouldn't be a problem.

Second of all, there are plenty of other people you can beat in the end.

Third, who cares about jury votes at final 9!!! -_______- Oh Ryan. Gotta love her.

So, as I sign off tonight, I have absolutely no idea what is going on. Good thing the voting deadline got extended.

Goodnight.

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Good morning, GveE! <3

Guess what I woke up to...?

...NOTHING. I still have absolutely no idea what is going on, and who is voting for who.

Awesome.

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Ryan just told me (less than an hour before the deadline -____-) that at the last minute, they switched it to Chase.

Ugh.

She said the original Ellis people are expecting me to vote for Dominic. But he's going to be mad regardless.

Why do I suck at this game so much??

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I'm acting ridiculously immature, and I don't know why. It's just a game. Why am I being such a baby? I'm so annoyed with Ryan for abandoning me this whole round. Every time I talked about game she changed the subject, and she would not tell me 100% who she was voting until less than an hour before the deadline. I have absolutely no right to be annoyed at her. I tried so hard to talk to Ben this round, but he just kept telling me he didn't know what was going on, which I know is a lie. Carly logged off early, but I would have appreciated a PM or something from her with an updated plan. But again, I have no right to be annoyed with anyone. I got myself into this situation. So I have no place to complain.

If Chase actually leaves, I will truly feel like I have no one. Sure I have Kendell, but honestly, sorry Kendell but you haven't helped me a whole lot ): Just hoping that someone in this game comes and sees that I'm pretty much a free agent at this point.